Life can throw a lot of curve balls at you.  Some can be huge life changing moments which you have absolutely no control over. In my 34 years I have had a few curve balls thrown at me, a lot of them in the last 6 years.  Some of these moments have been very intense and have changed my outlook on life.  I have already shared a couple of these moments with you. This blog is about another life hurdle that happened after I got married.

My wedding day was one of the most magical days of my life.  Our mini moon to New York 2 days after the wedding was a great experience. Our honeymoon to Mexico the following May was an amazing trip.  When we came back from our honeymoon, we decided to start trying for a baby. Little did we know, this would take a tough turn.  After over a year of trying, we decided to go to the doctor.  The doctor arranged some tests for us at the hospital and after a couple of months we got the results.  Basically, the chances of us conceiving a child naturally was about 2%.

More testing and several scans later, we were referred to St Barts Hospital in London for IVF treatment.  Against all odds, my first round of treatment in September 2013 worked and St Barts confirmed a viable pregnancy using an early scan.  However, several weeks down the line, when we went for our 12 week scan at Basildon Hospital, there was no detectable heartbeat.  The baby had stopped growing at around 8 weeks according to their measurements.  I have written about baby loss in another one of my blogs so I won’t go on again.  After 6 months of allowing my body to heal, we were allowed to start treatment again.  I went through another round of treatment which was unsuccessful.  Then they tried implanting a frozen embryo next.  That didn’t work either.  On our fourth round of treatment they implanted 2 frozen embryos to increase our chances of conceiving.  Lo and behold, one of those embryos took.  37 weeks later, after having complications throughout the pregnancy, our little girl Maya was finally born.

All the testing, all the scans, all the pain, none of that can ever compare to the love and joy you feel the first time you hold you baby.  That moment changed our lives forever.

Life changing moments like that are what make life interesting. Sometimes those moments can be painful, sometimes they can be joyful. Creating and launching my own business was another life changing moment for me. I’ve never been my own boss, I’ve always been an employee. When I do take that final leap and hand in my notice to my day job, that moment will be another one to add to my list of memories. Some life changing moments you have no control over. This moment, changing my job, my career, this one I do have control over. It is up to me and no-one else how and when this life changing moment happens.